I just rocked my baby and gave him a bottle. I stroked his cheek and brushed his hair behind his ear. I settled into my chair and pulled him close as he contently drifted off to sleep once more. There is nothing like rocking your baby to sleep. The feeling of love and joy and blessing is overwhelming. As I snuggled him into my chest, he was totally unaware of the tears that fell from my face in the darkness. Tears of heartache and sympathy. Tears of frustration and questions. My heart is breaking tonight for a mother who who will soon send her baby to be safe in the arms of Jesus. A sweet baby who has battled and fought like a trooper against the terrible disease of Leukemia. A precious little girl who probably won't see the age of three, or even Christmas this year. I am so overcome with too many emotions to wrestle with right now. Why do I get blessed with 3 healthy and amazing boys, all miracles... and my friend Misty has to experience pain and grief no mother should have to bear. Knowing and loving a child is the most precious gift God can give, and having that baby sent to Heaven so soon is just unfair and painful for me to even think about. Tonight, as I struggle to understand why this has to happen, I marvel at the strength and peace our family friends have shown through this whole process. The love of Jesus radiates from this family. The supernatural power that only comes from a God who created us, and loves us, will carry them through this. It is a slight comfort to my heart that they have HIM to hold onto. He will be their strength. He will be their peace. God Almighty will hold them up with his hand and will carry them through if the burden of pain is too much to bear. As I've been praying over this family, God brought a song to my heart...I Will Rise by Chris Tomlin. I've cried several times this week listening to it...Amazing lyrics...comforting..(no more sorrow, no more pain...I will rise when He calls my name) .I'll attach it below. I'm also including a link to her fb page so you can offer encouragement and prayer as they travel down this painful road...
So tonight, I'll forget about the laundry that piles up daily, messes that are made with dirty feet running through mud and then my kitchen, noses that have to be wiped, and stress that I feel...because all of those things mean that I'm at home with healthy and wonderful boys and I have blessings that others may not right now. I will ask God to forgive my selfish heart and cherish every moment I have on this earth to learn and love and share and grow. I will pray that my life may be used as a vessel to hopefully touch a soul, lead someone a little closer to Jesus, and be a loving example of what He wants me to be.
Thank you all for your prayers for sweet Amelia and her family in the days ahead...
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